life is so complicated. I love him but we just broke up again. I cant stand not telling him how much I love him.So we had to be careful, he did not have to act like that. I would be with him forever if he didnt make it so hard to forget about my mother. He worried me more than my famliy did. I would do about anything in this world to be with him. I promise I would be with him forever if he would be nicer to me. when he tries he so perfect no other guy could ever make me think twice about being with him. I just want someone to love and to hold and who will try his best to make sure that im happy. He could ask every once a week or something. If he would just come stright home from school even once aweek that would make me happy. some times I think that he wasnt happy with me. I wish he would take the time for me like I do for him. Before I go to sleep I think about all the reasons he means so much to me. theres so many that I could never count them.I love him so much I wish that I could just go to school on monday and he would be right there waiting for me and he would ask me out and say that he would try to control his temper. I had a dream last night that I was laying inhis arms in a comfy bed and he kissed me to sleep and i would wake up and he would still be asleep and i kissed him awake and hear his sweet voice well then I woke up crying. Ilove him so much!!!